Saturday, September 03, 2005

I yearn to be the mummy's girl, but some things just cant be the same anymore.
I often wonder, what would be like if I'm still a kid, hugged by mummy.
That feeling is great. But reality is cruel, I cant turn time back.
Yes, i know. Look forward instead of dreaming about going back, but its good to think about the past once a while. I'm back to square one. On my own.HAHA. I know, its not the unusual thing. I always say that .Oh well, thats me, you know.

The case is closed, I'm not gonna visit that room anymore. I want to be reliant to only myself.
Call me dumb, stupid, fool, asshole. Whatever. I almost opened up to my best guy bud. But we arent even the normal friends now. I can only say HENG, if not i wont be okay til now.
I promised to be normal in my previous entry, but obviously I'm not. So not okay yet. But in time to come, I will. I feel so sorry for myself, cause I'm just another pathetic fool living in this beautiful world, alone. I'm getting afraid of that word. Alone. Just a 5-lettered word, but it means hell lot, and hurt a lot too.
He was insulted by some bloody fool. Feel unfair for him, but i think he's a great person so he'll forgive that rat .